Wow just had the most fucked up dinner ever, My mom who fought cancer for the past year, in her neck and chest and was told by doctors she was clear over 5 months ago was told today she has lung cancer and I'm about to fucking lose it and cave someones head in. never smoked in her life and this piece of shit cancer has gone to her lungs. Why can't it just go the fuck away and leave her alone. I'm seriously about to fucking go off the deep end and do something bad to just get my head off of it. I almost reached across the table and killed my step brother when he said this is just gods plan. I was thinking maybe it's gods plan for me to reach over there and fucking kill you. I hope no one says that again to me, because seriously I'll lose it. I have no idea if there is a god why the fuck his shitty ass excuse for a plan does this and me and him are going to have a few fucking words if I ever meet that piece of shit. For begin the way I am and hiding my feeling as deep as I possible can. hearing this I need for me to vent and I afraid it's not going to be good. I was fine when they said it could be taken care of, but I know how tough lung cancer can be and know the odds, and it's tough seeing your mom who makes medicine for patients everyday for this know her odds and the chances she has. I don't mean to rant to you guys but at the moment it my only place to release and not go insane. It's weird venting to you guys knowing that I've never met any of you but I guess it's easy to open up to people you don't really know. At this time in my life for the person i am I've never cried a much as I'm now knowing that I might lose someone I love.
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Last edited by Carlos Spicy Wiener : 03-20-2009 at 09:56 PM.
Lt. I am hoping that with your strength she can recover and beat it. I to understand being a survivor. for little over a year. I hope and pray every day that it stays away. So now I will pray for her to....Be strong!!