WANTED: opinions! and advice... even if you are an asshole..

[drunkelberger]

so, this is my first post (but i stumbled upon drunkenstepfather years ago) anyways, this seems like a fairly diverse crowd of people and i was hoping to get some general advice or opinions about this situation i have found myself in, so, here goes....

last january me and my boyfriend of 4 and half years broke up, mostly because of complications related to being in a long distance relationship. through him i met my VERY good friend, lets just call him "John". my ex had lived with "John" in the city where i got to college, he basically moved up here with me for my freshman year. then he moved back home due to financial issues. fast forward to a few years later, while "John" had remained a close friend all through out college and i spent many many hours hanging out at his apartment. now i've actually moved into this same apartment.

so, phew, recap-
i now live in my ex-boyfriend's old apartment with his childhood friend ("John").
before moving in here 6 months ago we had been close friends and often hung out together.

so heres the problem....
one night a few months ago i was drunk and told him that i had always thought that if we had met through different circumstances that maybe we would date because we got along so well and had known each other for so long.

that night i slept in his bed, we didnt have sex, but we did the next day.
now we have this odd, semi-secret but by now anyone with a half a brain knows whats up, "relationship"

the question is.... am i the worlds worst ex girlfriend? i honestly really enjoy spending time with "John" and feel badly about this but i didnt purposefully choose to be interested in him.... so... what do you guys think?