A crisis of 'faith'.

[dusio22]

I say 'faith' but truthfully, I have little.

Here's my deal. My life has been swirling the bowl for about 2 years now. I've been laid off twice, can't find a good job, damn near broke, I have kids to help support and nothing seems to ever work out anymore.

I'm starting to wonder if my lack of faith has anything to do with it. I'm not a bad person, I don't hurt people, steal, maim, rape, anything like that. I try to be an overall nice guy.

I'm just starting to wonder, what does a guy gotta do to catch a break?

Any ideas?

I'm not looking for sympathy, believe me. I don't feel sorry for myself, I just don't get it anymore. I see douchebags living the high life and a guy like me, willing to work hard, be a good family dude, contribute to the world, get's fucked regularly.

Bad karma? God taking his revenge on me abandoning Catholicism?

Fuck if I know.