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Mutha-fucka I'm still alive, ain't it cool? Twenty Five years ago me mum had many books on psychology and all of it's aspects, and it's only been very recently, when I've gotten a handle on the fucking crazies, that I've been able to psychoanalyze myself. Though my mind slips, and it's infinitely more difficult to remember shit i've Just read, shit i've read when I was a wee lad (when I was more interested in the chapter in her books on sexual whats it) are returning to the fore of my consciousness which enables me to be able to recall truisms I learned at that time. Thus, I have a clearer picture of what afflicts me beyond the obvious. Though my problems could be partially due to some form of mental illness and real physical ills which could very well be life threatning, the final result is it conflicts with my mental calm, therefore I've layered my mind with so many not to do and to do boundries, that for the most part, my mind is muffled, and emotional states could be compared to a person drowning in water only able to break the surface of the water now and again and scream for help, just to be submerged in that ocean again where they have to fight to get a word out, if only a scream. I can still feel to a point but even this is become harder to do. Though it's only buried under so much stuff, that stuff is becoming more and more dense and much deeper, because the crazies grows in strength and their attacks are more frequent, my layers of control had to also increase, still, for the longest time I thought I was a sociopath, only to realize that over all, though I have stray thoughts of incredible violence, a part of me still hates the thought of spilling blood. Though, I still feel a lot of violence in my mind, which is incredibly troubling. A proper cause of a good much of those conflicting feelings comes from porn, I've come to the appreciation that I hate porn, but when I'm afflicted by lust, I find it increasingly difficult to resist it, at times I'm overwhelmed and this makes me disgusted with myself since there is nothing remotely appealing about porn, even shemale porn . That shit destroys relationships and endangers mental coherence, at least my mental coherence, and relationships? Well, I've witnessed fuckers break up their marriages to find fucking tramps they see in these fucking porn movies which is why I've always enjoyed watching homemade porn a lot more with regular looking dames and not the hollywood glamour attached to professional porn stars, though ultimately they're all fucking pointless, it's like homosexuality, and watching other people eat food: WHAT'S THE FUCKING POINT?

They're times I feel like I hate every one and every thing, and living at home with my family helped me control that bit of rage, or at least reacting and explosively showing every one who the fuck I am. But mum knows I'm fucking bonkers because all of us, and there's 6, are always fucking raging and hating between fuck you and I'm gonna kill you, so she's not surprised. I tell her some times that it's hard to control that bit of crazy which crawls it's way out most of the time, even though my raging family has helped me control it by watching them lose it and fucking rage, mine is always there.

It helps to be modest and to realize I'm not God, nor do I have his eternal power, so when the crazies want me to do something untowards I'd just say something like: 'Why the fuck don't you get powers on God's level, or make me a God like one. No? Beyond your abilities? So you just want me to hurt some one or do something incredibly untowards to an un suspecting victim so you'll get a thrill? Well then, fuck you, you odd sensation which rears your ugly fucking head now and again--- make me a god, then we'll talk." Sounds silly I know, but when the crazies fucking want to fuck up some one, or convince you to stalk some dame to rape em, it doesn't sound so crazy in my mind at that time.

I'm literally shocked that I'm not depressed like I was yesterday and two weeks before that. Saturday I couldn't sleep because the crazies had a fucking ball with my mind, I should have prayed, but I was afraid to because I'd just watched a bit of god awful porn (throat fucking vomitting and shit)---fuck porn!

Maybe I should drop all this weird shit and just try and serve God, but I'm always bursting with craziness, it's when Expletive gets to rant, there is some relief. What a fucking odd life, but I'm still here, for as long as I can be. Or as long as the Creator allows me to be, which probably won't last for much longer. You lot may say there's no God and any one who believes in God is a fool, but if it wasn't for that belief, I'd probably be killing fuckers for no reason. Besides, how the fuck can I follow science when it fucking cheats and lies and ask us to believe states which makes no sense. You lot says there's no God because his state is un believeable, but fucking science demands we accept that there is no way to know the exact position of anything but we must accept that something is and isn't at the same time, and this is the foundation of your faith in big bangs, so in other words, it's like saying you must have faith a particle that can do this thing and cannot do this thing which explains how it does all it does; which is whatever is necessary to explain our fucking crazy theories, that's fucking stupid if you ask me, either your here or there, dead or alive, and being in a box is only retcon fuckas.

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Census is almost over, i guess, maybe I'll be paid in full, maybe not, truth is, I wish I never got involved in this shit, it isn't too complicated, it's just too much. It has been the bane of my existence since April because what they're attempting, has never been tried anywhere on this fucking planet, which makes this some sort of record, and if I had another month with my hundreds of books, I'd make them all gold, instead of just bronze. But I no longer give a shit, my writing's suffered, my faith has suffered, my stalking skillz of fuckers on dsf has suffered, it's become a true tragedy. There is almost a extreme change in my personality; I've gotten tired of the feeling of my hand against my dick, I wanna feel a woman's mouth on my dick, or her cunt, regardless of how it smells. I know, I know, sometimes, a dames cunt smells worse than pus bile soup, but fuck, there are dudes shoving their dicks in shitty assholes and plowing away regardless, so a smelly cunt, I can do. At least I believe I can do a smelly one, fuck, I can do a smelly cunt, it must be better than my rough lube filled mits called fucking hands.

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Thanks nOOb, for bumping this shit BTT. Way to go fucker. You should be forced to read this entire thread over and over and over and over and over and over and over.

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Having religion is something special, hell, it's rather brilliant. Sure it isn't as much fun as being an Islamic jack ass, or a hindu bs'er, but it's pretty good. And it does wonders for the crazies. Not to mention the women there are always lovely and ready for a good man to love them proper. Only one problem; I'm Fucking Crazy, and I spend most of my time trying to control said crazies. Sure with my family I keep it in check well enough, and it took many long years to adapt to that. But the fear is always that I'd forget my mental excercises and do something fucking un-fixable. And where would we be then? Probably fucked. So it's best my odd mindset go where people are probably crazier than I am, which will help me control my own trouble.

The true tragedy is that the crazies is fucking with my creativity and writing ability, and I'm not having it. I'm fucking fighting for my writing power, and I won't stop until I'm back to where i was five years ago. And by creativity I mean the ability to think and write awesome shit, not actually write anything proper since, my grammatical fuck-ups meets and exceeds jesus martinez.

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I'm having one of those fuck you days. Have you ever had one of those fuck you days? I'm having one right now. Fuck you, Fuck you, really FUCK YOU! I don't feel any better though. As a matter of a fact, I feel like taking a nap while the world turns to shit and die. Fuck you all, now die. That's how I'm feeling today. But it'd be sad if all the Cunny Bleed out there went away, because then, I'd have no where to put my cock. And that my friends, would be sad. Of course I can follow fashion and do what Piff Diddles and Kanye West did and turn bisexual and shove my dick up asses, or find a good shemale and claim not to know she has that little extra in front---and give a proper shitter a go. But then, that'd be fucking dumb. Not when I can have my fucking pie and eat it to; It'd be much cooler to have a Cunny Bleed because they autmatically come with butt holes, Thus, I can have straight up sex or pseudo gay sex whenever I wanted to. Because admittedly, if you're a guy, and you fucked your girl in the ass, you're pseudo-gay. Not straight up butt-fucking or Fucking-butt taking Faggot. But, Pseudo-gay.

And if you're a straight up Fag who likes the boys, well---Fuck You, but not in the sexual way, the forget you way. And you can have your rights and reppeal don't ask don't tell. And all that other good stuff Faggots do when they're not fucking each other up the ass, or eating Cunny Bleeds, or whatever it is faggots do. But know that you have my support---to breathe fucking oxygen. Beyond that; FUCK YOU!

Now if you're a straight guy who is a sick fuck, and has watched faggotry and shemale porn because you don't give a fuck. Then continue having an open mind when it comes to smut, just be sure to encrypt your child porn because the law don't play nice; they're all a bunch of hypocritical bitches. And you lot don't want to be addressed as a sexual predators because you happened to watch something with your eyes. Because the next thing you know, court, jail and self rightious fucks will be having meetings before your ass moves into town. And if they don't murder your ass or beat you senseless or have you weeping like a bitch every fucking day to be left alone. They'll go to their congressman or mayor and have you living under bridges and shit because technically, children are every where. And you're not allowed a hundred yards near kids; and that's malls, schools, hospitals, bathrooms, fast food joints, any food joints, on high ways, at your mom's, at your wife's, in bars and every where else other than Ohio. But this watching child porn thing is silly. That's like saying because I played Rapelay, I'm going to rape bitches. I mean seriously. Some one needs to have the balls to say, 'because I watch child porn doesn't mean I'll fuck kids'. And then finish off with a 'hey, I watch faggot porn, and you don't see me licking some guy's ass followed by fucking it till it bleeds, now do you'? You can't stop the internets, the internets stop you. But if you find yourself looking at kids funny, then go to the nearest police station and tell them when you think about kids you touch yourself. They'll take good care of you from then on. Scouts honor.

Trust me, America is becoming more tolerent all the time, so who knows, maybe they'll listen. Then again, it's FUCK YOU DAY.

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It's really amazing how far holly-wood has fallen. No I'm not talking about Lindsey Lohan, or the Warcowski Brother and his shemale sister ( Though they could go fuck themselves with their faggot movie ). I mean how holly's wood fucked over Gordon Gekko. Wallstreet isn't a classic, it's a Biography of big business in the United States. And in my humblest opinion, everyone who wants to be a republican or get into business should watch Wallstreet until the can recite Gordon Gekko's line's by heart. Forget nay sayers bullshit about how being a pig doesn't pay off, greed for a lack of a better word, is good. So what if a few million people get's fucked along the way; that's the shit that makes America great. And it isn't about republicans or democrats, it's about takers and givers. Now a taker doesn't wear draws, they're walking around with their ass exposed knowing that at any moment, a giver will pop a cock in their ass. Sure it's rape, sure it's wrong, sure it's unfair---maybe unethical. But for the giver, it's pleasurable. The unfortunate taker falls through the cracks and dies, and the giver takes their cherry and goes on the hunt for another butt cherry to claim. All the while the taker doesn't want to be butt fucked, but can't afford the draws to at best hinder, the shark cock. So they don't wear any due to financial have nots, and relies on the hope that they're fast enough to get out of the givers way. And to add insult to injury, the taker is blind folded so they can't see the giver, and their ears are muffled so they can't hear them coming. So to avoid being butt fucked, they run around endlessly, like a chicken without a head, until they drop dead. And the one's slightly better off, to afford a pair of draws, is only relatively safe since, the draws is but a deterent: A means of keeping the giver at bay, hopefully long enough, to either get away, or put your affairs in order before the unavoidable butt fucking begins.

The giver usually sits up their with the big boys in congress or in big business, so when the shit's about to hit the fan, they sell their shitty stock for modest gain. Or buy it when it's going cheap, knowing that it'll be selling for top dollar in a few hours, doubling or trippling their gain. God bless America. I feel for you if you've lost your home. Or don't have insurance to take care of your kids. I feel for you. Really I do. But maybe, if you were more like Gordon Gekko instead of Bud Fox, you'd be the one fucking people in the ass. But me, I'm not even Bud Fox, I'm the fucking moron that washed his fucking car, but I'm trying to be the fucking Gekko.

Olivia Stone fucked up wallstreet 2 because Gekko has now become a remorseful pussy. When he should have been Dick Cheney.

I'm going to write a beautiful piece about Stargate Universe (fuck you, Atlantis was great, what the fuck is this shit that stargate has become; a dyke, seven of nine (with fish cooties), phlox, archer, reggie (from archie), Samuel Jackson (only shorter), Benjamin Linus and a Hurly wannabe. This is your fucking response? Atlantis numbers was 1.6 to 1.8, ya'll numbers around 1.3, what the fuck does that tell you?) The reason why I'm writing this piece is because Stargate was always the single show I couldn't miss, first with SG1 then Atlantis. I missed a lot of Universe, went online to watch the episodes I didn't watch, appreciated why I didn't watch it, and deleted the videos. But like the father who couldn't have kids then he had one son, who turned out to be a fag, and though he hates his son, his skeet ain't functioning, so it's the fag, or not. So through tears and vomit, he accepts his son's right to be called his son, but told him never to come around until he makes a few grand kids---I have no choice, but to allow SGU their time, though I hate that fucking show. It has potential. Time was a good episode. The rest was pure shit; every one's bitching about feelings. And they threw in a dyke to be edgy, I'm not being hateful I'm serious. The fuckers said they wanted the show to be edgy, so they threw in a dyke. Their words, not mine. If you wanted to make that shit edgy, throw in a character who has a very young wife who is barely thirteen,and she's one of his wives and they're mormons or better yet, muslims. Or have a woman married to a shemale. Or have a guy or girl who cloned themselves and they're fucking their clone. Now that shit, would be edgy.


Fuck the Warchowski Brother and his bitch shemale sister, and their gay movie! Tell the shemale to post her/he/it/WHAT THE FUCK EVER/tits with dick personal movie of it taking the brother's cock. Now that shit'll sell. Pred could promote it and everything.

One day I'll regret all this freedom I'm enjoying. So until then, have a pleasant day and don't hate me as much. A preemptive FUCK YOU just in case.

How am I doing? Read the above post and you tell me.

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Fuck SyFy, seriously, Fuck SyFy. I could blame Joseph Mallozzi, or Carl Binder, or Robert Cooper (of whom SukFu forced under a speeding bus). But in the end it would all fall back into Scifi's fucking lap (hold on, I'll explain who they are eventually). Science Fiction used to be about inspiring the next generation's imagination to do off the wall shit that would propel us into space. Where we could start murdering other civilizations because they don't look like us. But instead, that fucking station sacrificed substance for bullshit. And extra buttery loosey goosey, stupid mutha-fucking shit, that only entertains brain dead assholes.

I'M TALKING TO YOU, WHO WATCH DESTINATION TRUTH OR GHOST HUNTERS OR ANY OF THAT STUPID FUCKING BULLSHIT THAT'S AS REAL AS MILLI VANILLI'S VOICES ON THEIR ALBUMS.

Startrek inspired so many people, the original one that is. And thanks to ST:TNG (if you don't know what that means then, it's Star Trek The Next Generation. Just in case during that time you were busy swinging in your father's balls when it premiered. Or reaching the full depths of some crack whore's crusted cheesy cunt after binge drinking and crack smoking) some bloke at Apple created quicktime which led to the mp3 revolution, which made therapy possible for crazy fuckers such as myself.


So we're watching SG1 and they're on about something to do with crystal circuitry. So naturally since this, we're using black diamond based circuitry which can take much more power (which equates to a lot more heat, without melting); increasing processsing power, and enabling any device with this black diamond stuff to be able to survive an electromagnetic fuck death wave from the sun. FUCK YOU SUN!

I'm not the cunny bleed expert like the rest of you lot, but I do know my science fiction. Such as, I know enough about Science Fiction and Science Fantasy to know they're as different as day from night---thanks to Mr Plinkett at Red who gives a fuck--- which is: Science Fantasy is more flashy ubelievable bullshit like Starwars, where things do fuck all instantly. And Star Trek is more Science Fiction, and can do naught fuck unless it makes sense.
So we know in Star Trek they have a warp nacelles which generates a warp field, essentially bending space. And all of this is thanks to a warp core, which needs coolant, and coils, and plasma, and matter antimatter mixture chamber.
Starwars: press a fucking button and hold onto your balls, because you're going faster than light with the power of who gives a fuck!
Startrek: you'd better hope you have enough dillithium crystals, and enough coolant, and Geordi Laforge or Scotty, otherwise, you're fucked.

But as silly as all this science fiction space ships and invaders is, kids ate that shit up---not to mention I did. And I dreamed bold because of all of it. And thanks to startrek, generations has been inspired, and continue to be so. We should be looking to SCIFI or SukFu or SickFucks to give us inspiring shit to lead our and the next generations into more bold attempts to bridge time and space, and all in between.

SciFi sucks, and Eureka and Warehouse 13 is as inspiring as my next bowel movement. But the only show that could have made a difference, was Stargate. Why? Because it made the millitary look cool, and space easy. And if we know anything, joining the Millitary is akin to Russian Roulette, and Space is almost asking to die. But it made those things seem not so bad, because it's better to burn up than to fade away (FUCK ALL THAT SHIT THOUGH, I'M FINE FADING AWAY). But how many young people joined the millitary because of Stargate, or want to be Astronauts because of Startrek? But SyFy decides they can't afford both SGA and SGU, so not wanting to run out of steam in two years with SGA, Robert and crew decides to give SGU a go. But there was one problem; 1.8 million people watched SGA religiously. And the numbers trippled when considering the digital recordings to be watched later. Hoping all Stargate fans were just a bunch of followers they decided to drop SGA.

Bad move, now every one's pretty much pissed, and many have simply given up on the entire franchise. So the guys in charge say they'll let SGA die, and won't do any movies if SGU is cancelled. Now that's rather childish isn't it? But I can't blame them, they're like the guy who left his old wife for a fine young thing, who turns out to be a nasty slut whore, who fucks daily nine men. And three of them are black with bigger dicks---the kids get silly at ole' Papa for kicking out their loving realiable Mum for a nympho who has cooties. not to mention this Jezebel keeps semen from her lovers in the freezer to swallow later. And Papa, knowing he was wrong, and made a HUGE FUCKING MISTAKE, threatens the kids with starvation if they don't get with the program.

But all in all, we can't blame Papa, we have to blame his dick---SciFi is that Dick. Sure they're capable of such wonderful creativity on those rare occasions. And I do mean 'rare occasions'. Like this here Mandrake.

To save face, the Producers of the show, and the big cheesey dicks in scifi decided to throw Robert Cooper under a bus. Which was warranted because he promised SGU would be special, and every one would eat it up. But instead every one hates it, except for those noobs who knows fuck all about the Stargate franchise, and trolls. And being the chief troll, I'm warranted to give SGU as much opportunities as it needs to get it's act straight. And I'll watch, even if it's just to bitch later on about how much I hate the show. But I get Joseph, and Carl and everyone else defending this pile of shit: After all, if it fails they're fucked; no more cunny money, and that my friends, would be a real tragedy.

But apparently SciFi is making more money from these reality bullshit shows, and the extra numbers they're getting from warehouse 13 and Eureka surpasses Stargate. All of that bullshit equates to more money for them.

Thus, in the spirit of Gordon Gekko, greed is good, so fuck creativity and space, and the future. It's better to be rich in purgatory than to serve in Nirvana .

I should proof read this shit but fuck you I'm tired!

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O look, all my shit I've written is gone. I'm so sad, I may just try and suck my own cock. Seriously, I just might. Who knows, maybe I'll hate the taste of my cock in my mouth, maybe I'll like it. Sucking one's cock must be some natural need guys have when they're feeling like shit---instead of sucking their thumb, they curl up into a ball and suck their cock. Five inches and a fat fucking belly means, I have a better chance of forcing my cock into my asshole, before I'll ever suck my own cock. Never tried to force my cock into my ass, maybe it's impossible because my cock is only five inches long. and my taint is naturally five inches, so that leaves another four inches or so just to go. Fuck me, that's sad: Can't even service my cock with a mouth or a nice warm hole, even if it is filled with shit.